Extremely new muslima.

[Lollytop]

Im so new the lid isnt off my can yet! so to speak lol. well if im truthful im not converted for another week, since i still wish to know the fundementals of prayer and as i havent had a chance to ask anyone for help -and also having a fiance who keeps forgetting to show me lol. in fact i have many books in the post from amazon but they have not come yet due to wonderful xmas post. I wish to make lots of muslima friends, not necessarily muslim ones as on naseeb most of them dont listen when i say im engaged and the rest lecture me and tell me how its fitnah for women to go to masjid etc. Any how, I have found since i started researching islam it makes me feel more content, maybe for the reason im learning something or maybe for the fact that certain issues make me believe god exists again. I started off as a christian, the whole baptism and stuff but wasnt actually in a practising family. My father is a happy atheist and i wudnt have him any other way, but miraculously he doesnt care what religion i am and knows more about islam and its history than any other non muslim u might know. :P Now onto why islam, as im just covering all angles here. Its a fairly complex path that i shall cut down, at one time i didnt question if god existed, sometimes id mutter comments to him but i didnt really do anything, i felt pressure from ppl around me friends who smoked, drank, did drugs, went out clubbing- to which i wasnt invited anyway so boohoo no loss there. i did have a partner for 5 years but most of this was over the internet and telephone as he lived 90 mile away, for a guy as obsessed he was i was happy that allah put him 90 miles away. :P i only saw him 2 weeks every year in the flesh. The one day one of my friends in japanese class said "you arent responsible for anyone elses life" and i managed to dump him that night and felt relieved, peaceful so to speak. Now one of my other friends in class , the best friend of the friend who gave me the advice is an arab/indo muslim, we spoke alot on msn between lessons and one day he sed his family has to go bak to arabia. ironically hes still here havin passport trouble, but bak to the plot. hes 4 months older (im 19- hes 20) when he told me this i burst into tears and professed my love, and so did he- apparently he loved me for a year and a half but gave up. over the next few weeks as i thought he was gonna leave soon so i started to wonder what he did, and i read, and read, and read...alot. His intentions was to give up as all good men can for the good of my life. (silly ppl) but he also said if he wud have married me months ago if he could. due to religious family, and i said I'll convert. as he sits there on the other end of the computer suprised and aghast and many other things he obviously didnt expect. Since then ive read more and more and more and more enjoy myself better and know this is the right step to take and this is even before ive converted, by next week ill be a muslima. so please all help me. Im not converting for the guy - even tho we will be getting married, its all for me. I feel better than i have in a long long time and truly believe that god put me on this path and so this path i shall follow :arabi1: and for the first time in my life i want to do all those womanly things that western women despise, i shud know i am/was one. bit scared tho ive started thinking pregnancy clothes are cute lol. ok ok ill stop babbling, im completely in my right mind, and look foreward to embracing islam. p.s theres a lot more complexities in my whole god led me to this, but even we need some secrets.

[Muslim-]

Im so new the lid isnt off my can yet! so to speak lol. well if im truthful im not converted for another week, since i still wish to know the fundementals of prayer and as i havent had a chance to ask anyone for help -and also having a fiance who keeps forgetting to show me lol. in fact i have many books in the post from amazon but they have not come yet due to wonderful xmas post. I wish to make lots of muslima friends, not necessarily muslim ones as on naseeb most of them dont listen when i say im engaged and the rest lecture me and tell me how its fitnah for women to go to masjid etc. Any how, I have found since i started researching islam it makes me feel more content, maybe for the reason im learning something or maybe for the fact that certain issues make me believe god exists again. I started off as a christian, the whole baptism and stuff but wasnt actually in a practising family. My father is a happy atheist and i wudnt have him any other way, but miraculously he doesnt care what religion i am and knows more about islam and its history than any other non muslim u might know. :P Now onto why islam, as im just covering all angles here. Its a fairly complex path that i shall cut down, at one time i didnt question if god existed, sometimes id mutter comments to him but i didnt really do anything, i felt pressure from ppl around me friends who smoked, drank, did drugs, went out clubbing- to which i wasnt invited anyway so boohoo no loss there. i did have a partner for 5 years but most of this was over the internet and telephone as he lived 90 mile away, for a guy as obsessed he was i was happy that allah put him 90 miles away. :P i only saw him 2 weeks every year in the flesh. The one day one of my friends in japanese class said "you arent responsible for anyone elses life" and i managed to dump him that night and felt relieved, peaceful so to speak. Now one of my other friends in class , the best friend of the friend who gave me the advice is an arab/indo muslim, we spoke alot on msn between lessons and one day he sed his family has to go bak to arabia. ironically hes still here havin passport trouble, but bak to the plot. hes 4 months older (im 19- hes 20) when he told me this i burst into tears and professed my love, and so did he- apparently he loved me for a year and a half but gave up. over the next few weeks as i thought he was gonna leave soon so i started to wonder what he did, and i read, and read, and read...alot. His intentions was to give up as all good men can for the good of my life. (silly ppl) but he also said if he wud have married me months ago if he could. due to religious family, and i said I'll convert. as he sits there on the other end of the computer suprised and aghast and many other things he obviously didnt expect. Since then ive read more and more and more and more enjoy myself better and know this is the right step to take and this is even before ive converted, by next week ill be a muslima. so please all help me. Im not converting for the guy - even tho we will be getting married, its all for me. I feel better than i have in a long long time and truly believe that god put me on this path and so this path i shall follow :arabi1: and for the first time in my life i want to do all those womanly things that western women despise, i shud know i am/was one. bit scared tho ive started thinking pregnancy clothes are cute lol. ok ok ill stop babbling, im completely in my right mind, and look foreward to embracing islam. p.s theres a lot more complexities in my whole god led me to this, but even we need some secrets.

Welcome Lollytop to the site. I read your post, was very nice. I hope everything goes well for you.

What you said at the end is the right approach, that you're not doing it for the guy, but for yourself. The truth is the truth I guess.

And it's great you want to the womanly things, there's nothing wrong with being a Woman!

[Mabsoot]

Wa alaykum Salam,

welcome to the website, may Allah help you sister.


and by the way, those people who say women should not go mosque are mistaken, women are not forbidden from going to Mosques and men should not stop them from going.

Wasalam

[allmuslimsrequal]

Salaam alikoum, welcome lollytop.

I hope this site helps to answer many of the questions that you must have. I hope -Inshallah- that you learn much from here.
Good luck to you on your coming wedding.
-sis sara.

[Marwa17]

Welcome to the forum, sister...inshallah, you will be able to benefit from it as much as the rest of us...we are all here to learn from each other...Salam and WELCOME

[azlina_sam]

Welcome sister.. Do enjoy your stay here and may you acquire as much knowlegde in Islam in this great website..

:muslim_child:

Azlina Sam
Singapore

[MubarekMuslimah]

Walaikum salaams sister Lolly

Welcome to the biggest and best family in the world:muslim_child::hearts: .....,may Allah swt guide and bless you and your soon-to-be husband...If you need to know anything or want to ask anything - private message me and insha'allah I will reply as best and as quickly as I can.....you thoughts and your 'journey' sounds kind of famililar to my own :ma: - Allah swt is guiding you and may He bless you and keep you safe on the Right Path always.

Salaams

Layla x

p.s pregnancy clothes ARE kind of cute! They keep your baby ( and you of course! ) warm! Insha'allah!

[TheHumbleWun]

Congrats sister!

I must say it's a blessing with the choices you've made and how those choices has led you to this path, Al-hamdillah. I hope everything works out for you and your soon to be husband, inshallah.

That is great you did not revert to Islam because of your husband (inshallah). It is completely between you and God.

Hopefully you can teach your dad more about Islam by your actions as a Muslimah. I have a friend that is a Christian and knows tons of things about Islam, but I try answer all his questions and show him more by my actions (i.e. not drinking, smoking, doing my prayers, etc) which he truely respects, the rest is between him and God. It's a blessing how Allah has chosen you and I to be Muslim for you and I could of very well been different. You must cherish this gift because it is bigger than life.

Pregnancy clothes? haha first time I've heard that. I wish you the best of your choices and future endeavors.

From your Muslim brother

Salaamalikum

[Bawar]

welcome to this site and most welcome to islam. i pray to allah to make your journey to islam as easy as it can be.
ps: please dont postpone your conversion for anymore reasons because you are missing out on alot