I Killed Him/her, Help

[hager]

now,i'm crying..
seems this day,'s sadness day
well,'
when i was 14,in school,we have football match..
i was playing with my friends..Teams..so on
there was tree ..and above this tree..on one of leaves a nest for birds..
their mommy,daddy,leave the nest

i hit the ball on the nest..
i dunno,i didn't mean it.i sware..
oh..I'm Killer
in the nest..there was a baby bird..
i dunno,his sex..
he was so young,with pinky skin..
he fall on the ground ..me,my friends..though that the nest was empty..so we contain playing
and

oh.....i'M AWFUL.I'M KILLER..
we didn't see that the baby was on the ground..while playing,the ball hit the baby...
and we find something pinky on te ground
we find the Bird..he/she DEAD..
u see,i'm killer

but,i correct my mistake..i take a Tissuse..from my bag.and i was his body,and i put perfume on his body
and i cover him/her well
and i bired him..in school..and one of my friends..she read qur'an well..
she read on his soul
and i ask allah for forgiveness...
everyday when i was at school...i go to the bird,cemetry..and i read el-fatha..and i put flower on him..

hope the baby bird forgive me
and hope allah forgive me
the problem..now
I'm in university..i'm in faculty of arts,Archeology department..
the problem..
i can't go to school to see the bird..the manager wouldn't allow that..
i blame myself
i feel like i' m killer
i desrve death..cuz,i kill a soul
hope allah forgive me

Do u think Allah forgive me?
i'm akiller alright?i killed ababy bird?

[OsMaN_93]

salam sis
if you didnt meen it im sure Allah would 4giv yuu.. Allah is most mercifull
anyway .. to my learnings.. u shouldnt pray for it.. nor say fatehaa' for it..
its not human .. i used to av dis problem wen 1 of my cats died .. i used to say "Allah yerhamoo""ALLAH be mercifull on him" lol
and shaikh said that i shouldnt say that ....:astag:so ther yuu go u aint a murderer:)

[alkathiri]

:salam2:

Sister, i think you worry too much. The incident was like 4 or 5 years ago.

[Maria93]

hey cumon,u shudn't be worried..Allah is merciful..he forgives every1 who ask for it